sometimes....

sometimes i get really mad at my brother and i want to kill him i mean i actualy want to kill him. i think about it alot but then i come to my sences and realize that it would be illogical. anyway that was not wat i wanted to talk about. i really wanted to talk about my exboyfriend zach (no not the friend zach this is a differnt one hehe!). ive been thinking alot about him lately and i dont know wat to do about it. well it all started wen i thought that ex zach(ex bf) wasnt going to be at state convention and i was thinking that this year was going to be rele fun cuz i dont have to see him. well he was txting me one night and he asked me wat was going on and i said that i was getting excited for state. then he said that he was too. at that point i was flipping out. so i txted my friend zach and told him wat i knew and he rele helped calm me down. god i luv my friend zach. well as a result i got my fone taken way cuz we got talking and before i knew it it was 2 in the moring. so my mom yelled at me and i got my fone taken away but i got it bac today!! hooray!! anywhoo, bac to wat i was talking about. well since i lost my fone ive been thinking alot about ex zach and how he might of changed. i think that i want to get to know him again. i will see him in about 2days and im kinda excited. if any of my friends knew that i was they would yell at me cuz none of them like him. they all think that he is a creeper(well i do to but i dont care). but today wen i got my fone bac i tried to txt him i found out that his number was dissconected. i was so mad and sad all at the same time. but he will get a piece of my mind at state thats for sure. hehe!! im sooo glad that none of my frends can see this they would be so mad at me and all that. well i suppose that i should go for now i think that i might blog to much. its soo easy to get carried away in wat ur saying that it all just comes out. it releaves alot of things on my mind. well i need to go. ttyl

omg i forgot!

hey long time no posts! haha weelll i kinda forgot that i even had this thing and i was reading my old posts and i laffed at my latest one. god that was so long ago. well heres an update. me and eric.....never got anywhere. in fact it all went down hill from that day it seems. oh well i dont think that i feel the same way about him anymore. nothing much else. were out of school and all that. but.... ffa state convention is next week and im soooo excited and nervous im going to go insane! well im mostly excited to spend the week with all my friends which will be awsome. but my ex will be there and im afraid it will be like last year and it will be disatorus. but still i think it wont be so bad. today we went to a practice for our contests and that was incredebly boring. i was like going crazy. i think the food science team will do good this year. we kinda know wat were doing but ya neva no. well i g2g hope to post later in the week. ttyl (i think! hehe)